17 days passed and still my wife sleeps. God I miss her. The machines gurgle, beep and, that breathing, that God it is smooth today. And yet, I don't even hear them. Wait, I have to stop and cry. It's OK though, because no one is here to see me. I must be strong for others are relying on me: Protect and care for the children and give them a shoulder to cry on. Lisa's father - she could never see him like this. Is he going to be OK? Her mother, I can get a smile out of her and a laugh with a funny Lisa story. She is very strong through this. Vivian, her best friend and sister - they are separated by miles on a map, but closer than the palms of two hands holding each other. Lisa, please don't devastate her - she wants her children to meet and know you. Billy (her brother) I will be there for you like Lisa. Pedro, (her brother) I know you mean well. Do what you feel you can. I won't hinder you (at least not for now) for the sake of Lisa.

Back to: The last Valentine's Day

Oh Lisa, I need you. The kids and I are merely planets circling around you, for you are sun. Everything we do revolves around you. Without you, I feel vulnerable. But yes my Love, I will be strong, for your wish was always to keep the family together if something happens to you. I will fight for Ashley and David. I will give everything for them (they are yours and mine) I love them. But, Lisa, what do I tell Giana. Her birthday is in two weeks and you always take care of the birthdays. There is so much to think about, yet I only think to for for-God-let her live, stop her suffering. Please God, she is responsible for leading many of us to you. You can't be done with her yet. She is so young, so beautiful, so strong and has more to do for you. I need her God. I've always relied on her and now I am relying on you. You are my strength, there are not aren't enough weights in the gym that will give me the strength for this pain I'm feeling and prepare me for the future.

This woman who lies in front of me. You came for her just the other day. She must have told you that she is not ready. Now I'm telling you. If anyone is worthy of a miracle, it is Lisa. So many people around the world are praying for her. Please listen to them. We have all put this in your hands. I trust in you, whatever you decide I can live with for I know you will help me even though I would gladly switch places with my wife.

I'm not sure if this is a letter, prayer or plea. But do me a favor Lord. Take care of my wife. She is a wonderful woman and I love her.

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